I have a super cute baby. He’s also super sweet and fun to be with. And I love him an insane, intense, ridiculous amount which makes me not so inclined to leave him. But I’ve also realized that if I don’t take SOME time away, for myself, that I start to get a little…. crazy. It’s a strange sort of Catch-22. The thought of being away from him is not happy. But Leah without any alone and adult time is not so happy either. So I’m trying to carve out some baby-free time each week. And more than just the time it takes to take a shower.
It’s easy to make excuses not to.
Like… oh, he’s teething and extra-clingy and needs me. Or hey, I took an EXTRA-LONG shower today and even shaved my legs and put on lotion, so there’s my me-time for the day. Or I was supposed to have a date night with Mark, but the bank account is a little low this month and we really shouldn’t spend any money and the time could be better spent cleaning our house.
Y’all know what I’m saying? Luckily, I have other people in my life who remind me that I need to take more time for myself. And I need to make date night a more regular occurrence. So I’m working on it. We have more than two people we will trust to watch our son now! That’s a step in the right direction. We keep getting more and more business each month, so even if the bank account seems low now, I can at least spend $6 for Mark and I to get out of the house and have some frozen yogurt. And NOT talk about work! (That’s another challenge when you own your business. It’s so easy for all conversations to lead to work!)
We’re working on it. I definitely don’t have the right balance in place yet. But I’m also trying to be gentle with myself as I figure out how to have balance now that BabyRoX is rocking our world. So I don’t have it all figured out, but when I do, I’ll be sure to let you know the secret recipe! And in the meantime I’ll plan the next date night and NOT cancel it. Baby steps, right?